12.29.2009

an epic moment (for me).

Something amazing and unexpected happened today.

After being told by several friends that my pants were too loose (true friends tell you these things) and by another friend that there was a sale on jeans at the mall (even truer friends tell you those things), I decided to spend my lunch break shooting for single-digit land. Planning to be disappointed at the tightness of the epic single digit pants, I stripped down to my unmentionables...meanwhile giving myself a pep talk so as not to be disappointed when buttoning the size 8's proved to be laughably impossible. I slithered into the size 8, shielding my eyes from mirror in fear of what I might see. Although a smidge more snug than usual, surprisingly, they buttoned without much hesitation. Preparing for the worst I slowly turned around and laid eyes on the mirror. Amazingly enough: they fit!

eightaroo.jpg picture by wakeworkrinserepeat
(Thank you, 4" heels for your assistance. You are sooo painful, but so fantastic.)

A number is just a number, but this for me it marks a place I've not been in so very long. Truly, I don't remember my last "eights". My little weight loss journey doesn't stop here, because there is more to be lost and a healthier Bethany still waiting to be uncovered. However, moments like this are incredible reminders, affirmations that being healthy, and increasingly comfortable in my own skin, is better than any cheeseburger (wait, I'm a vegetarian) cheesecake I've ever eaten. And although I still plan to have a very close relationship with cheesecake, (hellloooo, cheesecake, do drop by on the weekends, love) I will not allow my body to become 85% cheesecake.

But beyond numbers and sizes, today I felt so fully the commitment I need to make to no longer waste time being dissatisfied with aspects of my body that are unable to be changed. No longer will I curse my light skin, freckled, broad shoulders, short legs or full face. Those little unchangeable pieces of me were put there by Someone for some reason. He formed me, and saw fit for my cheeks to always be childishly chubby, and for my legs to fall short of glamazon length. And if that's the worst lot I've been dealt? I guess I'm doing okay. So, thanks God. :)

And so tonight I celebrate quietly in my toasty little upper one-bedroom apartment, snuggled up in my thinking spot with a frosty Diet Dr. Pepper and a raspberry yogurt. It's no cheesecake, but at least I won't regret it in the morning...

15 comments:

  1. So you are gonna kill me with all your cute "high heeled" shoes!!!! Where did you get those cause they are pretty much adorable! Congrats on single digits! There is no better feeling than putting on your "regular" size and finding out they are too big and even better yet when you put on a smaller size and find out that they fit you to a T. Sigh, this has become very long winded...I hope you will forgive me! Anyway, you look great!!!!!!!

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  2. ah that is fantastic! you've inspired me to work toward that elusive single digit. oooh it seems like so long ago, though.

    very well done, and you look amazing!

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  3. Fantastic Bethany! What an amazing feat for you--to find inspiration in yourself is wonderful! Keep it up:)

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  4. Best feeling ever! Not that I've had it yet, but I will. Someday. You look awesome and seriously, your hair? Does it look like that every day bc I'm very envious...it's adorable. Congrats Bethany, I totally know the work it takes to get there, keep it up!

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  5. great accomplishment - great photo - great mood - !!!!!

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  6. adorable!! congrats! and you should be feeling equally great about having fabulous hair on top of it all. :)

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  7. congratulations! That is amazing and very motivating!

    oh...and you look great!

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  8. You look absolutely gorgeous, Bethany! That smile lights up your whole face, and makes the jeans look that much better. Confidence is such a great feeling to have. Changes your whole outlook, don't you think? Well done, lovely girl. What a great way to ring out the old year and welcome the new!

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  9. You look fabulous! Way to go! I love the picture.

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  10. What a wonderful feeling!! Congrats and just think, you did it during the holidays when we tend to eat the worst.

    BTW - You look absolutely adorable!

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  11. What a welcome to the what the new year brings! A fantastic personal achievement that means the world to you is simply the best way to see in the new year and continue your dedication. You look stunning - a massive well done!xx

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  12. Oh congratulations! You look wonderful and I know you must be feeling fabulous!

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  13. Seriously how cute are YOU? Adorable adorable adorable. Congrats! Nice way to start the New Year too I would imagine. This Mama is heading the other way with expecting another baby ;)

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  14. Oh Congrats!! I've SO been a two digit girl and then back to one digit. It is amazing how much that change can reflect onto your life. You deserve to feel wonderful!

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  15. you look like a girl in a GLAMOUR magazine :)

    you are fabulous for this post.

    do you realize how truly beautiful you are?

    i'm adoring your blog (erin's always right!) and can't wait to get to know you better :)

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