12.14.2010

..and then life happens.

*Behold. One piece of a final project.

Remember how I promised a real post with harrowing tales of my blizzard survival? That would have been fun, yes?

Well, my friends. My washing machine broke this morning…with all my favorite clothes in it. My toilet clogged. (I swear to you…I did nothing!) My modem is fried. And my phone will not allow me to send Gabriel pictures of every silly little thing I usually do. Driving has become more frightening than ever, leading me to believe it's time to drop several hundred dollars on new tires. It’s finals week, and I’m finishing up a paper + *project, working twenty some hours between Monday and Friday, packing in a little Christmas shopping and attempting to juggle some amount of personal creativity on the side...while knowing that I have hours and hours of studying to do this weekend.

Recipe…for disaster.

This all culminated in a small crying jag at the coffee shop when my computer continued to refuse to connect to the internet for the four millionth time. Then, a strange man began shooting me awkward glances through the coffee shop window. Hello, sir. Fancy lending me a hand at fixing my toilet? Or perhaps my washing machine?

I’m having one of those days. A day in which I don’t want to be witty. I don’t want to be cute. I don’t want to be creative. If only all my usual energetic friendliness went into some sort of bank of life, allowing me to scowl and become a holy terror for one day. Unfortunately, life does not grant us such indulgences and lest I frighten those around me, I will wear a smile, I will chat excitedly about the coming holiday, I will do my best to remain patient and kind.

But I offer to you, this post, lest I ever be accused of not showing you who and what I really am. Here it is. A real glimpse into my life. Unfussed over photos. Unedited text. This is me. This is my life, which I usually love. But, today I’m just not feelin’ it.

18 comments:

  1. This is not our week, dear! We need a vacation-- I wish I had a magic wand! Chin up; this too shall pass. :)

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  2. Maybe this will help to make your day a little brighter:

    You've never met me. I haven't even been following your blog for long. And yet, you inspire me even with this post. You are creative. You are beautiful. You are witty and clever. Your passion shines through in your writing and in your photos. You make my day better when I read your blog.

    Your life is so much more than a broken washing machine or a toilet or a computer. I know how it feels when 9,000,000 things seemingly go wrong at the same time . . . believe me, I've been there. In fact, this seems to happen to me at least once each week. But, look at this as an opportunity to skip out on your laundry for a day . . . avoid your work for a couple of hours . . . and just sit in your window to watch the beautiful blizzard while sipping from your favorite tea cup. You might want to deal with the toilet today . . . but take the rest of it one step at a time. (And, now, my dear, I should listen to my own advice and stop worrying about everything that I'm challenged by today!)

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  3. Oh Bethany... so sorry that you, too, are having a rough time. I'm having an increasingly hard time remaining upbeat and positive and festive, when everything (well, not everything, but it sort of feels like it this week) is falling to pieces around me. It will all be okay though, I'm sure of it! Even though I just stepped into an enormous puddle and now have soaking wet tights inside my shoes for the rest of the day. Sigh...

    Big hugs.
    xo

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  4. Make sure you let those tears out Bethany, take a deep breathe and tell yourself you will get through it all. I know you will, you are one strong lady. I hope the week takes a huge u-turn and finishes on a better note dear girl.
    xx

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  5. Cry, though sustain till you leave the coffee shop and cry in the shower *smile* that is what I do. I have also in the past go for a drive at night roll down my windows and just scream as loud as possible without freaking out too many people around me *smile*

    Basically figure out a way to release the stress. And go to bed with the mantra, tomorrow is a new day!

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  6. Oh, that sounds terrible! I'm so sorry. Dealing with finals week alone is driving me crazy. I can't imagine what all the added stress is doing.
    I hope it all gets better soon!
    <3 Kiersten

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  7. This is exactly how I've felt all week, but you put into words so much better than I could. Thank you for making me feel like it's okay to cry about it!

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  8. Hey "Bethannie", Just remember..."The Sun'll Come Out Tomorrow" When you're stuck with a day that's gray and lonely...just stick out your chin and grin and say...
    The sun'll come out tomorrow, so you gotta hang on til tomorrow...come what may!!!!
    I luv ya tomorrow (and all the yesterdays, todays, and tomorrows!!!

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  9. I'm sorry about your bad day. It's hard not to take the disaster of a broken washer and toilet, faulty internet, mountains of study-stress, dangerous driving conditions, etc. personally when it all happens at once. Something good will come out of today, it might be small but cheer up tomorrow is a new day full of possibilities. Wishing you creativity and sending you a smile.

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  10. Oh I hate these kind of days and I think it is perfectly fine to feel upset about it. Tomorrow will be a brand new day and things always seem better after a good nights rest.

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  11. Grrrl, we all have those days. But they pass.

    {{hugs}}

    LB

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  12. What a no good, terrible day. I'm hoping tomorrow brings you a string of good luck to make up for a miserable day.

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  13. Hate the day you've had but love seeing the "real" you. No matter how unedited your text, we still loe ya!

    Hope tomorrow is better!!!!!

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  14. tomorrow is another day....

    can i just say i adore you with each post? because i think honest raw emotions are refreshing, so thank you!

    i am in LOVE with that dashed envie!

    and think alecia's comment says everything so perfectly and so cutely. THAT made my day and so i can imagine how it affected your terrible one :) awww kindness in the world... i love it

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  15. I'm sorry to hear of your assorted predicaments. It will get better; but you already know that...
    This has been a life-in-the-toilet week for me, too, (my tears caught up with me at the eye doctor) which wasn't helped by the realization that next week is Christmas! or Christmas is next week!
    I posted my final test last night and knowing that I am finished with this semester has made so many other things look better. Today I can tidy my desk and start the next round...

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  16. Oh dear! You poor thing. Wish I could send a handy man your way...

    That beautiful stitched-edged letter is enough to cheer me up. What dreamy loveliness.

    Hoping your day is brighter and your apartment is on the mend.

    If it makes you feel any better, I am feeling 100% guilty for missing work on Saturday night (darn snow!) and received a new set of snow tires via UPS today. We so needed those a month ago. Better late than never?

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  17. aaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
    Don't worry, we all have those days!!
    this might be the season of bad luck?? last spring my sisters basement flooded and she did everything over, win for her right? until she realised that she had all of her christmas decorations down there so they were all ruined... so I donated all of my christmas stuff that I have gotten from decorating my college dorm and apartment, and what I was given as gifts the last couple of yrs to save for my own place.
    when there are good people around things work out... so get some draino, call some good friends (esp ones with computer knowledge!!) have a glass of wine... and try to stay out of the snow!! All will work out!

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  18. sorry to hear about your week. It has been a bad one all around, so it can only get better, right? I love the envelope though, can't wait to see what it is all about.

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