9.09.2011

a million little thank yous.

I shot this in Paris...when I spotted two children chasing bubbles in the
Jardin des Tuileries. It never ceases to make me feel happy + carefree.

There are not enough words to thank everyone who reached out to me yesterday. The comments and the emails were incredible...like a shower of glitter on a day that desperately needed some sparkle. After several rounds of paperwork and twenty minutes of answering the basics, I was referred to a marriage + family counselor who also specializes in eating disorders, which is likely where some of my anxiety and depression stems. (In a big way. I believe I "yessed" every eating disorder-related question. I never realized it was so bad.)

Once I left the on-campus counseling center, I laid in the grass and indulged in a 45 minute daydream. It was the most amazing I've felt in weeks.  My thoughts didn't race. My heart didn't pound. I didn't think about food. Or my pants size. In simply seeking help, I feel I've found a bit of peace. Although there's tough work to do ahead, knowing that I don't walk alone has given me hope.


If you emailed me with questions or advice, I so appreciate it and will be getting back to you this weekend! I'm a bit emotionally zapped today, so I'm planning to step away from the computer and just enjoy life.


Funny sidenote: Yesterday morning, on my way to my counseling appointment my car overheated. Yeah, funny. On my way to my ANXIETY counseling...my car stopped working. High five, life! :)

10 comments:

  1. good for you
    hang in there and take care of yourself!

    mindofmr.blogspot.com

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  2. Your poor car!

    I'm so glad the first step wasn't as hard as you thought it might be, and I hope it gets easier and easier with each step you take.

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  3. You are amazing Bethany. I love that you are so honest. I'm so happy that you are doing this and think it's great that you are more at peace. I'm with you all the way!! x

    P.S. That shot is beautiful! And I love that you took some time to just daydream and think.

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  4. I read both of these posts and didn't have the time I wanted to put into my response. It's too late right now (midnight! ugh!) and I'm too sleepy to say anything profound, but I want you to know I think you're awesome. Inside and out. And I am so rooting for you!

    Big hugs, sweet B.
    xo

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  5. You are brave. honest. and true. and so lovely for sharing your true self.

    i love you.

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